I have one love,
No comfort only despair.
I continue on to make it one more day
There is hope and fear in my heart
Others will say that I am amazing
That someone will find me that
Fears losing me as much as I fear
But there were three leaves on the autumn branch
I saw the first and loved
It was exotic and beautiful
I was young and headstrong, and like a dandelion in the spring
Took the leaf to my chest and breathed on it.
Though I held it gingerly at first, I held tighter
As time passed, and my breath became a gale.
The leaf flew from my hand as I let it go
I saw the second leaf, strong in the wind
It wanted to be wild and free, but as I took
And held it, it accepted me.
There were two seeds with it, which were planted and grew
They still grow strong.
But again I was finding and losing myself
The leaf recoiled and left my hand, landing close by.
Yet gone forever.
I Looked to the tree at the last leaf
I was hesitant to hold it close to me,
But it adored me and melted my fears.
I took it to my heart and was happy for a time.
Until I turned it in my hand from afar and an unseen thorn
Dug deeply and I recoiled.
It still lies far away, working to reach the wind
So that it may fly.
I haven’t talked about the fourth leaf.
Still beautiful and strong, vibrant and green,
Though it had been battered by the wind.
I took the branch and bent it close, not wanting to remove it from its perch
It was unhappy not being able to leave the tree,
hesitant to leave what it had always known
I touched it and it was soft. I whispered to it and it whispered back
I loved this one above all, and I knew it loved me.
There was the promise of life and joy I had never known
I watered it and held the branch close at first, but
Knew it needed sunshine, so I bent the branch less and knew it was happier.
There it sits to this day. Not wanting to bend, only to be alone
Though no other leaves remain, it prefers this
And I sit waiting to see. If it will one day bend toward me
Like it promised.
I know it will not. But my hope still lingers.
There are no other leaves for me